JESUS FOUND ME

A love like no other.

I never found Creator God by going to religious meetings, or in church buildings, temples, halls, not ornate stained glass windows, or in the crowds, or in the noisiness of frenetic religious activities, of performances. I never found him on the stage at religious assemblies & conferences when being interviewed & heard by thousands & thousands of other people.

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I never found Jesus or Heavenly father in Israel when I went 27 years ago. I never found him in the garden of Gethsemane. I never found him in the city of Jerusalem, or at the wailing wall. I didn't find him in the market places of bazaars. I didn't find him at the diamond mining factory. I didn't find him on the road travelling to Bethlehem. I didn't find him in the Lebanese restaurant. I didn't find him in the Jaffa oranges. I certainly didn't find him in the empty tomb. Yet He was everywhere. Yet he was at that time was rather far away from me.

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Ultimately heavenly father found & met me. I was a complete sinful stinking sad mess. And then Jesus came in & changed my whole entire life. He transformed me radically. He turned my life upside down & right way up. He met me when I had forsaken Him. He wouldn't leave me alone, but kept calling me & calling me drawing me & putting scriptures in my mind with whatever I was doing, what I was thinking, a scripture would come into my mind as accompanying commentary & would be in exact harmony with the thought or activity I was engaging in, and especially when I was deliberately choosing to sin, the thing is I hadn't received the fullness of the Holy Spirit within me, I had previously tried to serve God in my own strength & power, it just can't be done that way. A friend of mine took this picture of me some time ago now, and they did not see any of this when they took it, afterwards upon observation all was revealed, but it helps demonstrate the light of Jesus that poured into my home the very unique special day when he gave me spiritual rebirth and baptised me in the spirit. I love the fact in this photograph that my face looks red because of the precious powerful blood of Jesus.

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And I couldn't get away from Him and his ever pursuing relentless love, then eventually Jesus in real time revealed himself & manifest to me, but where? In my very own home, in my very own country, & when I was on my own. His powerful overwhelming presence & spirit literally streamed into my own home & into me & a light far more powerful and intense than that of sunlight also entered. I was sitting on my sofa and slid onto the floor & on my knees and bowed my head to the floor before the King of Kings, he told me he loved me & spoke my name. I responded with 'how could you possibly ever love me? I knew what was right, I know your word I know what you expected of me & I loved you, but I rebelled against you, I was so angry with you and I didn't care & I thought I tried to do it your way but I failed & miserably at that, it got so difficult it was like walking in such thick mud.'

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He responded with ‘I love you’ & spoke my name again. I couldn't fathom this shaking my head responding 'but I don't even deserve your love.' I wept and wept & just could not comprehend the totality of His love & towards me. He said ‘Exactly! No one does. Do you now grasp & understand far more my son's sacrifice & what He did. Yes, when you were 16 you cried were so moved at what Jesus was willing to do to forgive sins, & your own, but because now your sins are so many yet I forgive you, you understand my love & forgiveness in a far greater & expansive way.' He asked 'you want to serve me? The only way your going to be able to truly do this is by being born again.' I honestly did feel like Nicodemus in that moment & was asking but how? What do I have to do? & He said I will bring my spirit upon you, I was like you will?! This is when I began understanding the gift of his grace. He explained to me ‘behaviour modification is one thing but you can't serve me in your own strength or power that is why you failed, it is only receiving me & my spirit & has to become operative in you, for me to come & dwell in you, into not just your spirit but to your very soul body & entire being. You have to become a new creation. And it's me as Jesus that can only give you that & do that in you.’

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Jesus broke the shackles & chains of unnecessary burdens that the many Christian Babylonian religious systems so desperately required & put you under their hard yoke of bondages, that Jesus all broke off me.

It's the religious systems & thinking Jesus called out, even when in his day. "Yea, they bind heavy burdens and lay them on the shoulders of men; but themselves will not to move them with their finger." Matt 23:4

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Jesus revealed to me through Him Heavenly father's image, love, truths, grace mercy, creativity, genius, justice, righteousness, discipline He as a true judge, holiness, so many of His attributes & the many facets of His unchanging phenomenal mind blowing character, nature, faith, desiring holy intimacy through relationship, fellowship companionship & profound connection & through the privilege & avenue of prayer, in really getting to know Him through spending very important time with him, entire days from early morning to night, he pulled me to him like a magnet, church meetings only isolated & pulled my necessary imperative time & me very very far away from him. And I missed Him so much! They wore me out. And only highly confused me. These places were so empty & He was never there. Everything Jesus gave gifted to me, they tried to steal kill and destroy from me. The people there didn't want to even speak about him. They never wanted to receive his love through being ministered to through or by Him. They wouldn't accept his hospitality nor to be served, they just wanted to go back to their own homes, families. They didn't have a living alive two way responsive continual interactive relationship with Him, nor Heavenly father’s holy spirit, they did not have the ears to hear his spirit and they didn't care. Most of them had never even met nor encountered the true real Jesus. They were never so powerfully impacted by Him, they still had not been delivered nor completely emancipated from satan's kingdom of darkness or the world, they still wanted & loved all satan’s system had to offer them, and found such far more appealing enticing than all Jesus had to offer, especially in his incomparable inexpressible riches and of all spiritual treasures and riches found only in Him and the heavenly places in Christ.

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When I sat at Jesus' feet drawing ever close to him, drawing from him, He revealed illuminated & opened the scriptures by his spirit. I felt inexpressible joy & His very overpowering presence & spirit surrounding me and within me. Finding and having the peace of His presence—His light & easy yoke.

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Jesus so desired holy union & alignment with Him, His and father in heaven's heart, will, vision, commandments & truths, as I so desired Him & all He wanted to bless to give. To abide & go deeper and through Gods empowering enabling spirit for without him we can do nothing, resting in Him, so that more of His life then flows through mine. His Spirit bears fruit I could never manufacture. Love. Joy. Peace etc. It is he that wills to carry out father's work for his good pleasure in and through me, not by might nor by power but by God's spirit. In Him I found true freedom & He delivered me from all that was not of Him. A beautiful sister Victoria Jean on here asked me, as she selflessly rang me all the way from the States and asked me when I shared with her about having travelled to many countries in this earth, she asked; ‘where was your most favourite place you have ever been to?’ I replied my most favourite place is being and spending time with heavenly father and that's the truth, & most amazing place I ever have been and keep going to. There is no place on this earthly realm and dimension that even comes close to entering into His realm and dimension, He is incomparable His person and entire being and there's no place I would rather be.

I pray this blesses you.